These are the exact same words muttered by my mother. This is the result of consuming anti-D pills for over 10 years.
"You don' t talk to me! I don't want to talk to you."
These are the exact same words which came from my own once beloved mom but now caused us to be distant. N when you want favors, you put ur words at the back of your mind and presume everything is alright already. Does that mean I have to wait for you to be feeling ok to talk right then i react? You don't even want to talk to me and now, you r the biggest ya?
This is the result of consuming anti-D for 10 over years. N that is y I do not want to end up like you. Ppl may say I look like you, wadever but I do not want to end up the same psy mind as you.
At your age, you still behave like a small child. Cmon, one day all yr chdn will leave you and you will be all alone so you have to learn or start being independant alrdy. Your son will not grow old with you and wait till you die b4 he moves on with his life.
Y can't you be more independant for us, your children to look up to and respect to other than the fact that you have a job, a career, a car, a house, immaterial physical things. You don't order persistently with your sons but with me, you do and remember and even told me not to talk to you.
Seriously, I dunno how to face you everyday i come hme, after work, i just go str to my rm, change, bathe, eat, use the comp and slp. My wkends will be isolated from you far best as possible. You are just plain biased.
Cont later, going out now.
bye.
10:21
hi evryone. Its a sat! did ironing and hanging out of clothes this morning as my mom and bro left for duno wher earli in the mrning and left my younger bro n me. I hang his NS uni as well as i had nothing better to do.
I was thinking bout my life n i considered not working under a boss. B my own booss. What do u think> I may have little knowledge and skills but I am willing to learn if i had enough money.
Pray to God for the ans then.
Bye!
10:45
Hey!
Been gone for 3 years already. Much has happened.
I guess I enjoy reading blog then writing blog. Haha. Today I baked kueh lapis. N in the morning I went to jb buy some nice bread & kueh for my family. My mom fell down in the toilet ytd at hme. My bro brought her to visit the family doc and ta-da! she was given four days MC.
Now is 820pm already. I feel so damn bored.
What should I wear tml? Skirt or Pants?
I just realised that life is long. Everyone says life is short cus death can occur anytime but personally looking back at my 20+ yrs of life, I feel as though I have lived long enough. This statement cannot be measured by my accomplishments or my self-fulfillment but by experiences.
I've come across all types of characters. I've accumulated lots of experience dynamically speaking. Maybe cause I am no longer protected, no longer dependant, no longer under the warm wings of a pegasus. Instead, I am the latter which must happen sooner or later especially since the time has come and from unripe, I am now ripe.
I MUST BE AN ADULT!
We are all working to survive in this physical world. We practise religions to save our souls after life on earth. Before we leave, work work work seems never ending and ever tortutorus. Everyday we spend money. Transport, Food, Groceries, Toiletries, Medical Bills, all these are physical needs.
Everyday we follow a routine, we face obstacles/challenges, we meet difficult ppl, we cross the roads, we walk, talk, gossip, breathe, eat, drink, face computers, listen to people. I'm sure we all agree what I just mentioned. When we r out of the comfort of our home, we look forward to do whatever it is need to be done outside and return to our home.
Have you planned your future yet? You better cause its nv too early.
Before I end off, I shall list a few of my regrets.
Right now at this very moment, my biggest regret would be my TATTOO.
Yep, intending to get rid of it.
Good night peeps, mankind, human, boys girls, man woman, all living breathing creatures.
P.S> btw i've fallen in love with this girl. She's on my desktop. Has anyone seen her?
20:03
yiN YanG CakE anY1??
00:21
this blog is abt uploading pics oni and mayb a few complaints of mine, thats all
enjoy the pics
The group of us sushi tei.
complains is that no hotels want me..........T_T
22:17
Hi there, now is 2339 hrs on a sat night and i just came back hme from esplanade. My good friend was telling me to blog bout my exp just nw in the theatre so i shall spill in the beans especially for you hor mianlin...tomolo if u c i gt dark eye rings its bcus of yr sake..haha
well, the show was 2 and 1/2 hrs including the intermission and i would rate the performance overall as nt bad but not perfect at all. the props used for background and all the costumes were fascinating. however, frm my seat, i could view the cast but nt see their faces clearly and nt surprisely, the ushers were "selling" binoculars for us audience to purchase in order to get a closer zoom of the cast faces. but of course i did not purchase those silly binoculars cus it would ruin my make up. neway, i helped my mum applied make up and she looked gorgeous instantly that i kept staring at her frm hme, in the cab and to the theatre. Don't think otherwise. I love my mum very much soo must look at her more often than usual.
There were many scenes in the play with singing 3/4 of the time, 1/4 talking and humour. If u ask me who i like best in the play, it would be "Christine", the leading lady course she has a damn bloody good angelic inhuman voice that i can't possibly imagine anyone could hav. She is soo talented and she got to kiss 2 guys during the play. The kissing was weird for one cus it was the last part where the phantom told christine to choose between him and Raoul ( the other leading man who is Christine's true love ), then christine suddenly kissed the phantom then hugged him, then kissed him again and hugged him, like a cycle liddat. very old fashioned kissing. haha.
But i almost shed tears during the last part course when the phantom let Christine and Raoul go ( they were being held captive ), he sort of sang in a sad melody " Christine, I love you...i really love you ", upon missing her absence from his sight. its like i really "pity" the phantom for being born deformed and that he groomed Christine into a SOPRANO lead singer in their play but what he gt in return was nt to his expectation. Sometines i wonder if the phantom wasn't "ugly" at all, will Christine even consider him? Mayb.
Anyway, the last part was the phantom sat on his fav chair and covered himself with a big black cloth then a few minutes later, there was a small kid curiously entering his domain and then lifted up the cloth but there was no one. HE DISAPPEARED!!!
The beginning of the play was an auction being held, the 1st item was a map or portrait then the 2nd was 3 human skulls and other thing N the 3rd item is the one i love the most, a musical box with a monkey figure on top, i don't care about the looks but what is being played and trust me, the music was mesmerizing.
The middle parts are as usual singing, dancing by ballerinas dressed in their leotards and skirts and how Christine, the undiscovered talent was DISCOVERED then she became popular and then she and RAOUL fell in love then the Phantom brought her into his dungeon and revealed his true face to her then oh ya, one person died, the phantom hung him frm above and the dead person droppped frm above.
there was a full audience i guess comprising of lots of ANG MOH LANGS ...haha.... my mum bought the BOOK of phanton, inside say bout the cast, a few pictures etc..will show u, mianlin, on sunday specially for u..but cannnot borrow de wor...its not for loan, haha
btw, out of all the songs performed, one of my very fav is Masquerade whereby its a group singing.
gtg slp le, cus tomolo wana celebrate xp bday at vivo!! can't wait!
Gd morning Blog!!
23:28
Haha.....hi!! Today is earli in the morning, date 21st of Apr 2007 @ 0147am n i'm listening to Fei Ni Mo Shu, nice song by tank. hehe.
Later in the evening i will be goin to watch Phantom of the Opera with my mum and younger brother in esplanade.
Then on sunday go celebrate xp birthday cake. I have prepared the cake le. hehe. it will be a very chocolately one mind you. i guess will be very sweet too. initially wanted to design a motorbike pic on the cake but failed to achieve the desired outcome therefore i changed the design to simpler one. hehe. but the cake damn heavy lor. mayb bcus of the choc. haha.
monday go back sch for lesson which will end very late siah bcus our silly communications teacher suggested moving our tuesday afternoon slot to monday slot and combine with his monday slot thereby ending like 5pm starting from 8 plus in the morning.
come to think of it, i actually wasted my wed-fri at hme with no interviews frm hotels or positive replies from any hotels or restaurants. soo many of us competing for trainee baker positions. Students frm sunrice and temasek poly and now even ITE also offering pastry and baking course. it seems like the trend has just started. i don't recall a few yrs ago the ITE or even polytechnic had this baking course. only recently.....T_T wana cry le. realli hope by next wk can get a confirmed attachment
God Bless Me.....
I actualli checked out Jack's Place website where they display their cakes for selling, and i'm rather impressed by the designs and so on. It will be my honour hab my work attachment there. Frankly, i prefer restaurants than hotels for work attachment but what the heck, can't choose, i need to be chosen by ppl...
Gd Morning Blog!!
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01:43
Haha....Its alrdy 8 plus in the morning and i'm the only one truly awake in my entire hse. Later i hab to go church service followed by
choir practice and then
go hme slp and
wake up and
sunday slack like couch potato then
monday sch reopen..........
everyone, thats my life......on Earth that is not in my dreamz..hehe
i was thinking mayb later today can go watch an idiotic silly movie to pass my time..lately i hate to slack at hme cus soo bored even with comp and internet at hme but still very stuffy and humid and suffocating for some reason. mayb the ventilator in the hse took sick leave and decided to make us suffer the fury of the result on overworking it. but we r paying for yr hard work ok?!?!? haha.
anyway, sianz of maple le...its like when i am in game mode, i c my maple char and whatever is in the screen of mine, i totally SIANZ diao...i think i hav a major prob...nv been like this b4, cus i used to love maple but not now or mayb ever
btw, that is me mystifywan or my maple char when i first started out pplaying maple...then i had met a great sorta friend ( better nt gib u ign else u will harass that person like there's no tomolo ) who helped me lotsa during my journey of mapling and also gav me lotsa gd stuff too to aid my lvling else i would hab be bored long b4 yr time...
ok then, next is
i have the feeling u can't c the pic well judging from the size and blurness...so i specially edited the above and ta da
yeppp....thats "me"..........lolx.....so kawaii right?? i nv use any cash items to change my look lor or any of my features...oni added a tiara to complete the blue princess look...haiz...i miss this kawaii face, the eyes r soo sweet makes my heart melt....
soo far in my mapling exp, these r the pigs i hab encountered with
thats pig nbr one, the small feet big eyed, tin tailed and avg nose sized pig...haha
next is the ribbon pig, hmm i am thinking this ribbon pig is the favourite amongst these 2 cos its likely to be served to guests with the ribbon tied up like a present or a sheep for slaughter but don't underestimate maple monsters cos sometimes whatever the monsters r wearing, its used as quest items for eg, the ribbon
lastly but i think of cos there r more pigs to come when u explore different places..this pig is no same color as the above 2 instead, it has hairs and a very bad temper too....
yep, it has nice hair do pointy eyes and also what u call, horns???, at its cheeks to attack maple char like me...T_T soo poor thing kana the sharp pointed white tussels/tusks?? lolx, sounds like elephant liddat.
wait wwait i hav one more to show u
yepppie.......almost forgot about >>>>>>>>
the fire boar............the brother of wild boar, legend has it that to save the village of the BOARS, the brother boars sacrifice their lives to save the small baby boars so amidst the burning fire, these hero boars touched the hearts of the BOAR "God" therefore these hero BOARS were given special powers which is the FIRE power to protect the BOAR village from any harm however, since the village was razed to the grd, these BOARS became wild boars and there was no village to guard soo these FIRE BOARS started attacking maple chars.....T_T.........nice story eh.......or at least its how the boars came about
okok, mayb next time i show u more pics of my mapling adventure?? haha....i find it rather kewl now to blog when inserting pics cus it brings back memories...
gd morning Blog!
08:04